Here is just a tiny glimpse of my book, “Get Thee Behind Me”

The smell of fresh blood was in the air.  Everywhere I looked, there were bodies…dead bodies.  Some I recognized and some I did not…some were family members…some were friends – low and behold, I was the only survivor.  But wait a minute, I hear people talking and dogs barking.  I see white men with whips and guns in their hands and spying eyes to see if anyone had survived.  I quickly trampled over the dead bodies and stumbled over my mom –  part of me wanted to cry – part of me wanted to scream.  I knew if I did either, they would capture and kill me like they did the others.

Deja Vous

This Concludes Mimi Jenkins Moment of Truth.

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It Was The Thing To Do

April 30, 2013

Passing the time away seems like a thing to do, but when you conjure up all the enjoyable things that where considered fun as children, suddenly takes on a whole new meaning in life.  Playing house in the woods with a set of  used plastic pots and pans that were excitedly retrieved from a dumpster was the highlight of my childhood.  Making mud pies and pretending to be all grown up when in reality, it never dawned on me that looking back, I would much rather relive those days.

In those days, it  may seem like a poor life to some, but it was a joyous time for me.  I didn’t have a lot growing up, but somehow seemed to appreciate whatever toy or trinket my mom gave me.  It was the very thought of having something to play with…it didn’t matter where it was from.

From doing chores washing my own clothes in a ringer washing machine, I was still obedient and was a very well mannered little girl, but often found solace in my room as a means of escaping the crowd.  Crowds…never too good around them…never found any interest to be a part of the adult world unless I was playing house in the woods with my used set of plastic pots and pans.

Those pots and pans, oh how I wish I had them – while the sound of rain bounced off the roof of the house that often sent me scouring around for a pot or bucket to capture water from the leaky roof, it appeared to be normal.  I looked normal,  I had dolls,  pretty clothes like any other girl; even though they were often bought at a yard sale.

It was at a yard sale that I lost my one dollar bill I was given to purchase a couple more trinkets. Seeking to be my own person, I would often pretend to be someone I wasn’t…maybe deep inside, I wanted to escape, but didn’t know how.

I didn’t know how  to escape so I would pretend I was driving and my car went off a cliff while rolling down the grassy slopes – screaming from the top of my lungs.   Not considering the bites from bugs or the ticks that had made themselves home in my flesh.  I read how you can get lime disease from tick bites.  

Reading was what lost me in the world of day dreams.  Oh to be the lady in the book.  It was a way to build a man according to my likeness.  We all want our husbands to have some of the qualities of our dad, but unfortunately, I never got to know my dad.  

Not having a dad in life, I would often lose myself in a world of make believe, it was a way to shut out all the was real.  Seeking higher ground and to be that which every one wanted me to be was and untruthful spirit of who I didn’t want to be.  

The truth would later open my eyes to watching my older siblings have the time of their lives while I was often left home alone due to my lack of social skills.  Desiring all that could enter into an already thoughtless situation often left me questionable and scared in the dark.

The dark was not my friend.  I heard that all undesirable things happen in the dark and I didn’t dare turn my lights off.

Lighting the way to understanding and finding out my purpose was what lead me to make friends with the ones no one liked.  It Was The Thing To Do.

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I am going to start my day off with thanking God for waking me up this morning.  I have learned a lot by listening to God, reading the Bible, and praying.  For one, I have learned biblically to be slow to get angry, slow to speak, and quick to listen.  Now, you may think it doesn’t make sense, but in actuality, it does.  I used to shoot off at the mouth all the time…listening to words of other people.  It got me in a lot of trouble.  Now, I seriously think before I open up my mouth and I do not jump to conclusions anymore.  If I am told something negative about someone, I wait a day or so before I respond; whereas, in the past, I would assume the person throwing all the negative punches knew what he/she was talking about.  That landed me in the middle of a lot of, “He said, she said,” conflicts.

It is always best to let things settle down before giving an answer.  And can I tell you that your loved ones can be the worse non-truth tellers.  Your loved ones, the ones you do the most for end up hurting you more than anyone else.  I don’t know why this is….I do not know why we have to lie in order to hurt another person…why we get mad at one person and talk bad about the other person…knowing full well that sooner or later, the person you were talking ‘bad’ about is going to get back to him or her.  It doesn’t make sense to put people against one another with lies.

Another thing I have learned; I can’t make anyone love me, read the Bible, pray, or do any other Christian thing.  I cannot force anyone to do or say anything that is not in their hearts to do so.  On the other hand, I do not think a person should do things or say things, just to satisfy another person because it makes for a miserable life.  You should do and say things simply because you want to do and say them…because it comes from the heart.

One more thing; if you have a goal in mind…if you have been called to do it….if it is your God given gift…do not, I repeat DO NOT let someone talk you out of it.  Has it ever dawned on you that maybe, just maybe that person does not want you to succeed.  They can think of a thousand and one reasons why you shouldn’t
 go for your dream job, career change, new relationship, and home purchase….anything negative to keep you from doing better.  Oh yes, I am going there…some folks like to hold you back…they like hearing you complaining about what is wrong in your life and they don’t mind giving you suggestions.  It gives them something to talk about.

Well, I have one suggestion for you.  Learn who is holding you back and who wants you to succeed.

  • Who are your friends
  • Are your friends adding to your life or sucking the life out of you
  • Do you often get encouragement from family members and/or friends
  • Are you still stuck in the same situation you were years ago
  • Are you often going to the same people for advice; telling them everything that goes on behind closed doors.  STOP

When you tell everything that goes on behind closed doors, you are giving people permission to crash your life.

This Concludes Mimi Jenkins’ Moment of Truth

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Are You Focused

January 7, 2013

As I look back over year 2012, I wonder if I have accomplished or at least attempted to put myself out there and be all I could have been by asking myself the following questions:

1. Did I slack in any areas?

2.  Did I work to my full potential towards my goals and dreams?

3.  Do I have any regrets?

Did I slack in any areas?

I think so, at least in the beginning.  You see, a lot of times we think we want something when in reality, we don’t.  We all need money to survive, but will it make us happy or fulfill our every aspect in life?  I have mentioned in a previous blog to go for what you want in life and do what makes you happy as long as it aligns with God’s will.  Sometimes, we tend to miss what we already have right under our noses.  That being said, I love writing and I will continue to write, but I will do so in an inspiring fashion.  There are lots of books and gurus that can tell you how to live your life, but in the end, it is all up to you.  How do you really perceive life?  Could you have done more things to accomplish your dreams?  If so, what you doing about it now?

Did I work to full potential towards my goals and dreams?

Towards the end I did.  You see, it is easy to say, “I want to be a writer.”  What was I doing to pursue my goals?  Did I sit back and wish for it?  Or did I, little by little, start focusing on how I can become a better writer.  What do I need to do in order to get my name out there?  Did I get disappointed every time I viewed my book and didn’t see any reviews?  Of course I did.  But, it only motivated me to keep pressing forward.  It also motivated me to reach out and seek others that I can encourage and uplift who are in my same shoes.  By me giving, I will be able to receive the gifts that God has placed before me.  I have connected with the right people who not only care about their writing, but are willing to help.  It is very important to surround yourself with like-minded people.

Do I have any regrets?

The only regret I have is not pursuing  my goals a lot earlier.  If you have a gift, use it before you lose it.  It took me a while to find my writing voice.  I knew what I wanted to write about and who I wanted to reach out to, it’s just putting those thoughts from pen to paper or from fingers to computer.

Live your life the way God intended you to.  When my mind is in a fog, I refer to Proverbs, 3:5-6 and Psalm 23.

Happy New Year Everyone!

This concludes Mimi Jenkins’ Moment of Truth.

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Don’t Just Settle

December 15, 2012

Settling is something you do when all options have been exhausted.  But, should you settle on marriage just because your biological clock is ticking and you don’t want to be alone?  Are you settling because all of your friends have settled?

Let me tell you a little secret: no one truly knows what goes on behind closed doors.  You see those happy couples at the restaurant, shopping mall, or sporting activities and think they have it all together.  Do they really?  Is their life really peachy king? I would watch how happy couples seem to be on television and I would say to my husband, “Husband, why can’t we be like that?”  His answer, “That’s on television.”

Am I settling for less?  Are you settling for less?  Ladies, when your man hits you and then tells you he’s sorry repeatedly; are you settling?  Gentlemen, when your woman talks down to you and never has anything nice to say; are you settling?

When you are at work and feel as though you are not making a difference; are you settling?

My problem is, I have a difficult time knowing what it is I truly want out of life sometimes and I often settle for less because it’s all I know.  I do know that I love to write and encourage others, but sometimes get discouraged because I am not famous or have any fancy degrees.  You see, we tend to settle for less all the time because we are stuck in a box.  You have to get outside the box, take a deep breath, and take risks.

My first novel titled:  I Am My Mother’s Daughter was a huge risk for me because I know I am a first time Author and I knew going into it that I would have to do a whole lot of marketing to get the word out.  Is it working for me?  The answer to that question is; I will never know if I don’t at least keep at it.  I have some good people on my side to help me along the way.  There have been a lot of times when I wanted to throw in the towel and pull my e-book off the shelf, but if I did that, I would be settling for less.  You have to work hard to achieve your goals; not only that, winners never quit.  I have to admit, it is real tough.  Tougher than I thought.

If there is something you want to do with your life, go for it.  Know your strengths and your weaknesses by trying different ways of accomplishing your goals.  But, most importantly, don’t settle for less.  As far as I can tell, the majority of successes came into play from many failed attempts.

How can you know if you are settling:

1.  You are not happy.

2.  You once had goals and dreams, but where put on hold for one reason or another.

Listen to your heart, it never lies.

This concludes Mimi Jenkins’ Moment of Truth

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