It Was The Thing To Do

April 30, 2013

Passing the time away seems like a thing to do, but when you conjure up all the enjoyable things that where considered fun as children, suddenly takes on a whole new meaning in life.  Playing house in the woods with a set of  used plastic pots and pans that were excitedly retrieved from a dumpster was the highlight of my childhood.  Making mud pies and pretending to be all grown up when in reality, it never dawned on me that looking back, I would much rather relive those days.

In those days, it  may seem like a poor life to some, but it was a joyous time for me.  I didn’t have a lot growing up, but somehow seemed to appreciate whatever toy or trinket my mom gave me.  It was the very thought of having something to play with…it didn’t matter where it was from.

From doing chores washing my own clothes in a ringer washing machine, I was still obedient and was a very well mannered little girl, but often found solace in my room as a means of escaping the crowd.  Crowds…never too good around them…never found any interest to be a part of the adult world unless I was playing house in the woods with my used set of plastic pots and pans.

Those pots and pans, oh how I wish I had them – while the sound of rain bounced off the roof of the house that often sent me scouring around for a pot or bucket to capture water from the leaky roof, it appeared to be normal.  I looked normal,  I had dolls,  pretty clothes like any other girl; even though they were often bought at a yard sale.

It was at a yard sale that I lost my one dollar bill I was given to purchase a couple more trinkets. Seeking to be my own person, I would often pretend to be someone I wasn’t…maybe deep inside, I wanted to escape, but didn’t know how.

I didn’t know how  to escape so I would pretend I was driving and my car went off a cliff while rolling down the grassy slopes – screaming from the top of my lungs.   Not considering the bites from bugs or the ticks that had made themselves home in my flesh.  I read how you can get lime disease from tick bites.  

Reading was what lost me in the world of day dreams.  Oh to be the lady in the book.  It was a way to build a man according to my likeness.  We all want our husbands to have some of the qualities of our dad, but unfortunately, I never got to know my dad.  

Not having a dad in life, I would often lose myself in a world of make believe, it was a way to shut out all the was real.  Seeking higher ground and to be that which every one wanted me to be was and untruthful spirit of who I didn’t want to be.  

The truth would later open my eyes to watching my older siblings have the time of their lives while I was often left home alone due to my lack of social skills.  Desiring all that could enter into an already thoughtless situation often left me questionable and scared in the dark.

The dark was not my friend.  I heard that all undesirable things happen in the dark and I didn’t dare turn my lights off.

Lighting the way to understanding and finding out my purpose was what lead me to make friends with the ones no one liked.  It Was The Thing To Do.

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It’s All About Timing

April 26, 2013

As I embark on a journey to do that which GOD has purposed me for, I wonder what took me so long.  What took me so long to realize writing was a gift to be used to help people live a better life?  I had it all wrong; you see, I thought in order to make a difference; I had to sit behind a desk anticipating the next project – wanting to please my boss with what I have learned.  But as it turned out, I was only burying myself deep in projects while still parked in neutral – not going anywhere fast.

We all think we know what we want, when HE knows what we need.  Now, I’m not going to turn this into a preachy piece of information, but sometimes, we do not exceed in life because we go after the wrong things….

I wrote an e- book titled, I Am My Mother’s Daughter’ – it’s not doing so well.  I thought I “wanted” to be an author of best-selling books.  I just knew my e-book would sell.  Guess what, it didn’t.  This wasn’t the type of writing that I was supposed to get into to or was it.  Maybe I went about it all wrong and just assumed I knew I had what it took.  Wrong.  If my husband, publisher, family, and friends, said it was great; then how come it’s not selling?  Well, maybe it wasn’t in GOD’s plan for me to be an author – at the moment.  It has to be on HIS timing, not ours.  It’s all about timing.

But, I didn’t give up hope that writing was still a gift I had, having published my first poem as “unknown” at the age of 12 because my mom couldn’t afford to get it published:

If life was like roses so pure and so sweet

There would be no problems between you and me

 It went something like that….too bad I can’t remember the rest.  But writing has been my passion for as long as I could remember, it just took me many years later to figure out what to do with it.

 Writing can be used to uplift others with encouraging words of wisdom….it can be used in research to find out the latest cure for diseases…as a letter to a dear friend….it can be used to give you the latest updates on what’s hot and what’s not….writing can be used for any and all things which is good.

 Writing gets me through my day when I’m frustrated – when I am at work and things seem to get a little out of hand, I pull up Microsoft Word and type my thoughts.  It relieves all the anger inside and brings forth a better temperament for the remainder of the day. 

 The journey that I am embarking on, will take me places I have never been before (from the comfort of my home), allowing me to help those in need and loving it.  Any journey you take in life is supposed to have some sort of purpose behind it. Ask yourself the following questions as you embark on your journey:

 

  • Am I doing it to better my life or someone else’s or both? 
  • Am I helping someone in need?
  • Am I doing all I can to make a difference?
  • Is this what I am asked to do?
  • Is this a need or a want?

 It’s all about timing.  If you go for something and it doesn’t turn out the way you intended, consider it a blessing.  There are bigger and better things waiting for you ahead.  When you look back on your life, you will be glad you didn’t take what you thought you wanted.

 This Concludes Mimi Jenkins’ Moment of Truth.

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Recently, I was asked this question:  Are you living your life to the fullest?

My initial response was, “I don’t know.”

You see, I haven’t given it much thought until recently.  I immediately came up with a list of the things I have such as:

  • shelter
  • A car
  • A part-time job (keeps the bill collectors off my back)
  • My mom
  • Siblings
  • Running water (one of the many things we take advantage of)
  • Food
  • Clothes
  • Spouse
  • Kids
  • Etc.

Then I started thinking of the things I don’t have:

  • ?

You notice there is nothing listed.  I drew a complete blank.  That’s when it hit me.   I have more than some and less than most, but I am living…..it may not be completely to the fullest…..I’m breathing!  I have goals!  I am inspired!

Sometimes, we think we know what we want; GOD knows what we need.  What I have found out is; if HE wants you to move outside of your comfort zone, HE will stop at nothing to guide you according to HIS plan and purpose for your life.  When it is your time for prosperity…your season to shine…GOD will let you know in more ways than one.

You can never judge a person by his/her fancy car, nice home, career, or care free life style because you don’t know what he/she went through to get where they are today.  It reminds of the song by Mary – Mary, “The GOD in me.”  You don’t know how much they prayed, gave, or had to give up to live the lifestyle they are currently living.

When I see someone living their life to the fullest (or so it may seem), I say to myself, “If they can do it, so can I.”

It motivates and inspires me to keep travelling the straight and narrow path.  With a lot of obedience and hard work, we can all live life to the fullest!  But, you have to want it!

This Concludes Mimi Jenkins’ Moment Of Truth

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