No More Tears

October 21, 2015

The light sparkles in her eyes as I peek my head in the door.
“Who goes there?” Mom asks.
“A ghost.” I jokingly reply.
“I hope it’s a friendly ghost.” Laughs, hugs, and kisses are how mom and I  greet each other in the mornings.

A caregivers job is not easy, there are good days and bad days, but through it all, I  count my blessings.  I am very thankful to have a mom.

My days are spent cooking, cleaning, bathing, and sometimes feeding her depending on her mobility functions (we squeeze in time for shopping). I wouldn’t change a thing. She took care of me for 18 years, now it’s my time to take care of her.

Everyone’s circumstance is different, but if you can find it in your heart to forgive, please do so now. We are placed on this earth temporarily. Do what you can for your loved ones while they are

alive to receive it.

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I remember waking up one morning and seeing my mom’s face beat to a bloody pulp. She had been out partying when her boyfriend snuck up on her and accused her of cheating. Before she could say anything, he threw her down on the floor, straddled her and beat her senseless. Two of my siblings were present at the time mom was attacked, I can’t remember which two. Word had circulated that a man was physically abusing an older woman. By the time my siblings came to her rescue, she was laying in a pool of blood. Her boyfriend fled the scene. This same man wrestled her to the ground once before and tried to bash her head in with a brick. Josh and I cried for him not to do it. Josh tried to stop him, he was only ten at the time – no match for a grown man.

Get Thee Behind Me will be part of I Am My Mother’s Daughter video – Abuse is abuse no matter how you look at it.

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Not Easily Broken

June 24, 2015

The world as we know it is still the same, but the people within it has changed with magnified evil that cannot be ignored. What ignorance doesn’t do is make me weak and hopeless; instead, it strengthens my faith. I am not easily broken by Satan’s attacks nor am I broken by the evil He stirs up in people.

Conversations such as racism can no longer be ignored. Babies are not born racist, it is taught at home. We attend Church, read the Bible and out of that same mouth, we both praise God and curse others.

Change comes from within – you have to want it bad enough to make a difference.

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The rest of the world stood still as I wonder my place within it.

How could it be something so large and I stand alone to defend myself against flesh…world…Satan.

It’s not so I do it alone, but through God’s grace and mercy, I shall overcome all that try and steal my soul…I shall make the enemy my footstool.

A little taste of “Get Thee Behind Me”

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Here is just a tiny glimpse of my book, “Get Thee Behind Me”

The smell of fresh blood was in the air.  Everywhere I looked, there were bodies…dead bodies.  Some I recognized and some I did not…some were family members…some were friends – low and behold, I was the only survivor.  But wait a minute, I hear people talking and dogs barking.  I see white men with whips and guns in their hands and spying eyes to see if anyone had survived.  I quickly trampled over the dead bodies and stumbled over my mom –  part of me wanted to cry – part of me wanted to scream.  I knew if I did either, they would capture and kill me like they did the others.

Deja Vous

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It’s always tough when you try to piece your life back together after a tragic incident; whether it’s losing a loved one, losing your home, financial burdens, sickness, or spiritual death.  Starting all over again takes a tremendous amount of strength, focus, obedience, trust, and in my situations, faith and constant conversations with God.

Often times, you go through life trying to be accepted by friends, family members, parents, and your spouse – hope is often lost in pleasing people.  No matter how much you try, you can’t please everyone.  I would often get the guilty stare down when I say the word, “no”.

I have also noticed, the closer I get to God, the more people will bring up the past.  I refuse to be defined by my past – the moment I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Personal Savior, the old me was put away and the new me was born.  The past does not define my future.

Each and every morning, I thank God for keeping my heart beating throughout the night and filling my lungs with oxygen.  The alarm clock didn’t wake me up, He did.

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My book Get Thee Behind Me is a non-fiction book in the making.  It details the cycles of abusive relationships, infidelity, and separation of family.  In a world so divided…so are families.  Witnessing my mom being beat in the head with a brick…she survived, forcefully thrown on the floor and breaking her leg as she lie on my bedroom floor in agony…she survived, going to jail for a crime she didn’t commit, but my brother did in order to save her life…she survived.  All my sisters have been in similar situations…they survived.  These and more stories will come to life in my book.

This is why the book I am currently writing is important to me.  It is near and dear to my heart and those that have been through or are going through the same cycles of abuse.  It has to stop and it starts with you.  Be a survivor and know when to get out of an abusive relationship.  There is no shame, but if you stay in the relationship, you only have yourself to blame.

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